Once upon an unintelligible time, I thought my will power is strong and I can push through with my resolutions (birthdays’, new years’, christmas’, new school years’)…so I made many of them, only to find out that not all of them are really feasible. Some of them, even though I have already put a stupendous effort in trying, are still unchanged and definitely not gone. *sigh*
Since I learned that, I tried to limit my “I wills” to that of achievable, which is not the real point of it all…which is pretty much depressing for me. I can’t accept the fact that I have to succumb to several habits that I want to ’remove’ from my life.
Here are some for example:
- …say NO to that cup of COFFEE. *sobs* Even for health reasons, I can’t desert caffeine. Ü I simply crave for it. It just feels that I must have at least a cup a day to appease me. This “I will” is really easier said than done. R- (another really?) haha.
- …stop creating more and more blog accounts, in different communities. Everytime I learned a new community that can host blogs? I must have an account…I dont know why. *sigh* I have about 5 active blogs and more non-active ones.
- …being too scared to act about big and drastic things that don’t primarily concern me but have effects on many. Sometimes, I am too selfish and choose the easier way. Some see me as an activist i the making for I often times speak up for what I believe is right. What they dont know is that I am meek on the bigger things. I believe, sadly, that I prefer my comfort over a lot of things that can of too much use on a lot of people. *sigh*
